When I first got into the program I had a really rough time making new friends. I felt like there were not a lot of opportunities offered to go out and meet people. Or maybe there was and I just didn’t take them. I was shy for some reason since I am normally an outgoing person, and it was difficult for me to talk to people other than my roommates. Once I started work I immediately made new friends. It was going great, we would hang out all the time, go to the parks before our shift, talk during work, and overall just spend lots of time together.

For whatever reason I decided to become best friends with the CP’s who were ending their program a month into mine. Meaning, I have just recently had to say goodbye to so many people that I was so close too. Some of them from the US but a few of them were from other countries like Brazil and Mexico. It is sad because it is likely I won’t ever see them again or if I do, it won’t be for a long long time.

This was sad for me and I am not sure why I decided to spend my time and invest in people who were just going to leave anyway. I am grateful for my time with them and I miss them greatly but now I am stuck with the same problem I had in the beginning. I have good coworker friends who I talk to at work all the time but I truly don’t have a single person I think I could go to if I wanted to go to the parks with someone. All those people have left. I am trying to build stronger bonds with my coworkers in hopes to have what I had with my previous friends but it is very hard. It is tiring having to put in all the effort into making new friends again when I just did that less than a month ago.

I am working on pushing myself out there more than I normally do so hopefully I can make some closer friends that I can hang out with outside of work. I think I will be able too it just might take sometime. I have to be patient and know that it is going to take work, but I am willing to do it.